Absorbing

Deep down she knows she’s hurting. Deep down she is struggling. She is fighting to be noticed in a world of people who claim to be better than her. She can’t handle the stress of being who she pretends to be. This isn’t her. This can’t be her. She’s better than this. Well, she had always thought of herself as better than this. So, she buys it. She goes down town and buys anything expensive. She doesn’t necessarily like it, but it doesn’t matter. The image she is expected to uphold is fading. So, she buys. Shoes, purses, clothes, and anything that makes others jealous. When will she stop? Stop pretending to be the woman who she isn’t. She can’t though. It’s been so long since she has been real. She can’t even remember the last time. So, she buys and buys. The debt piles up, but the image stays the same. Outside she’s fabulous. Inside she’s drowning. Being absorbed by a woman she isn’t.