I hate shopping. I think when people hear a female say this, they think she must be crazy. I love clothes and everything about looking nice, I just can’t shop without wanting to cry. I hate spending money on myself. I could have an unlimited amount of money and I would still rather shop for somebody else.
Every time I go shopping I start off okay. I buy an item or two in the first store, nothing I really love. As I continue to shop I get pickier. I look for something that I cannot live without and don’t want to actually buy anything. Even if I go shopping and I HAVE to have something I am still reluctant. I get nervous as I shop because I know there are less and less stores that I can buy something in. The stores wont have my sizes and I get finicky. The entire time I pick at my hands. I don’t know why I do this, but when I get nervous I pick at my hands and my stomach gets a burning sensation. My mother is usually with me and she begins to yell at me for not buying anything and I get even more upset. When sales people come over buy me and begin to throw stuff towards me I cry and just leave. Then I will pick out something that may be hideous just to stop shopping.
I could be okay with never shopping again. I have a real problem. I’ll stick with online shopping from now on. It’s easier on me.
autumnrockefeller 